My name is Jenna and I'm an 18 year old female. Sorry about the spelling I'm not very good at it.
Well any way i was wondering if there was any way possible that someone could be so used to keeping things in like how they feel about things that eventually they could hide how they are feeling from themselves. And i ask because i think thats what i do. I'm not a very open person about things and so i keep things to myself almost always and i think keeping everything in is stating to affect me, and i want to open up to someone but i just cant seem to get my self to do so. I really don't no how i feel or why i feel how i feel or what i think about it. And i don't know how to know so i could talk about it. Is it possible for someone to show you how to unblock what you've done so for so many years? and how do i get my self to talk about it?
Although your spelling is, as you say, atrocious—I have corrected it—I suggest you do some writing as a way of trying to make contact with your feelings. Here is what to do:
1. Get a blank sheet of paper.
2. Write at the top, "Things I Have Been Hiding From Myself and Everyone Else."
Start writing without thinking. Just let yourself write whatever
comes out. Do not censor it or worry about whether it makes sense.
Just write without reading what you are writing.
Just do this everyday for a month without reading anything you have written. Save the pages, but do not read them until the month is over. By then you should have twenty or thirty sheets of writing (all with bad spelling I am afraid). Take the pages and read them. I can practically guarantee that you will be surprised at some of the things you have been hiding from yourself.
When you have completed this diary-making, get back to me and let me know how it went.