Instead of talking to you again I only have one question.
As a sociopath what jobs can I hold and function with? I grow tired
of living off others. Is the military my only options?
I cannot plan long term goals and achieve them. I lose focus as I
live in the moment. I went to college and got a two year degree but
my criminal background prevents me from getting jobs.
I believe if I don't find a way to sustain myself I will self destruct
and if I can't live why should anyone else? I don't want to end like
this but if I do it will be guns blazing and I'll take as many people
with me as possible.
I am a high anxiety sociopath that always requires high levels of
stimulation to achieve for fulfillment. Can I take something besides pot
to calm myself down? If I could calm down I know I could prevent a
Would it benefit me at all to admit what I am? Would they give me
medication to calm myself down or should I just continue my criminal
Hmm guess there were more questions after all.
Oh also you should know my mother is also a sociopath. She works in
the medical field, has a psychology degree and once she realized what
I am, as a child, she gave me a lot of mental training. She taught me
how I should consider consequences, understanding how other people
feel by their expressions and body gestures, manipulation, how to use
guilt and other control methods. She trained me to hide what I am and
how to blend in and feed off the emotions of others.
I am far superior to her. From her mistakes I have learned how to
seem genuine without ever giving a crap about anything.
Oh and I live in Arizona but I have a worldly knowledge as I have
lived in many places including London, south Africa, east coast, the
north, Vacaville California and many other places.
Btw I try not to hurt people anymore.
I suggest that you seek treatment with a good psychologist. That person will be able to help you with advice about what occupation might work for you (judging from your letter it would best be something stimulating and challenging—the military might work), and will be able to counsel you about possible medication which might be more effective than cannabis.